I'm aware that I've been down lately and a few friends have privately contacted me about my attitude. They were motivated by love and they gave me words of care and encouragement. I have been mulling over these exchanges and I won't share everything, but they were correct on all points.
Sinking deeper into despair will not improve my outlook, but faithfully trusting God will. I needed the reminder that He is in control and every single thing that I've done in life is what led me to where I am today. Where am I today? I am a beloved wife to my husband and an adored mother to our son.
Yes, I'm still sad about losing this baby. Who wouldn't be ache over the unexpected loss of a much-wanted baby? But I can't allow myself to be governed by the fear of another miscarriage and I can't beat myself up over choices that can't be undone.
Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is a fresh new day. I can choose how I respond to life's curve balls and I will not be held hostage by fear or guilt. I will live tomorrow to the fullest.